Why is it bothering me so much. I want to cry about, I want to be sick, I want to kick and screem. I hate him. Why him! Why not me! Im the decent person, not him! Ergh! I want to cry coz I know that will make me feel better but I havnt got it out. I dnt wanna ever talk to him again or touch him but I know he will try one day. Ergh. Why did I ever even get told, it was none of my busyness, but now I cnt get the sickness out of my head! He sed he wasnt ready and he sed he wud tell me, I didnt want to find out of sumone else! I hate it. I hate him. I hate myself for being so bothered but I cnt help it.
Although very over the one person I feel I have ever been close to in my life, I really didnt need to know that his gf has had a miscarage.
No..not really. The 'kinda' seeing sumone thing went kinda pearshaped. He stopped bothering after the incident mentioned before. Arnt men just lovelly!
Kinda sposed to be seeing someone. Was going really well until I told him the most personal thing im ashamed of and its kinda changed. Mmm.
Im trying to stay calm about it. But it aint easy.
Woooooo!!!!!! It was wicked! So chuffed I managed to go in the end dispite being as skint as!
Got to see Fatboy Slim, BK, Tidy Boys, Lisa Lashes an sum other dudes I cnt remember the names of, unfortuinatly missed Hixxy tho *Sniff. And who ever those peeps from Gurn.net (scooby van thing) are they were fookin wicked! Raving away in the rain cudnt have been any more amazing than it was Saturday, complete with sexy plastic waterproof ponchos! LOL.
Toilets wer again lovely (sarcasm). Came complete with Lake Pissamere and a lovely wiff.lol.
Role on Global 2007! Woooo!
Story 1
Little back ground story... ...She over slept this AM and didnt get in till 9.15am. I was in at 8.40am. During my lunch hour wich begins at 12.15pm and ends at 1.15pm, I sorted bank stuff, checked I had my refund from Pen and Lolly (I do by the way minus £6.95!), called consumer direct etc etc, so after all that about 1.10pm:
Me: Im just going to quickly wuff my soup.
AG: Ok (complete with huffyness and a face).
Whislt in kitchen I fight with a wasp for a while, get asked if there is a water cooler downstair and then wuff the soup. I was about 5 - 10 minutes over my military set lunch HOUR.
Me: Sorry about that....
Continue to make small talk....
Me: So...are you doing anything interesting at lunch?
AG: Oh...im just going out to buy sum lunch...im only having a short one as I was late in.
Story 2
Me (at the v beginin of lunch): I am soooo tierd (flops arms and head on desk pretending to go sleep).
AG: You can have a sleep for an hour if u want.
Me (still sprawled on desk): I just myt.
AG: Yes..you can go in the other room (AG (inside head): OH MY GOD SHE IS GOING TO SLEEP IN THE OFFICE *Panic!)
Me (hearing the voice in her head and wanting to wind her up, hehe): No, Im going to sleep here (Me (inside head):hehehehehe)
AG: No but then it looks like ure still working....(AG HEAD: HOW DO I TELL HER ITS AGAINST OFFICE RULES AND THE THREATS OF JAIL IF WE DO NO CONFORM WITHOUT HER KILLIN ME??)
Me: I was joking!!!!!!!!!!! (ME HEAD: FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) THE END
ERGH!!! That was so a dig at me (Story 1). They are obsessed these people! So 'to the book'! Its like she is a robot or somthing and only programmed to do certain things! Ergh!!! Im not even a rebel me but working here makes me wanna strip naked an give these people somethin to pass out over u know wot I meen, these people are wierd I swear.
God, got supervision again tomoz, I wonder what shit things ive bin doing this time (myt just start stripping now so wendy will really have sumthin to tell me off about!).