So I saw Silent Hill today with Joanna, Nico, his brother, and Nicole... it was an awesome movie! It wasn't that scary, but it contained stuff in it to creep the hell out of you. Haha... it was a short-but-fun day. I love my friends... but yah, I still need a job.

But yah, I just wrote out my speech today, I'm a horrid student, I have to present it on Tuesday. LOL, I'm a really awful student, but hey, I have around 4 pages of my speech to talk about during my presentation. I hope I get an A. Since the only real facts presented are the calories (since I'm talking about the dangers of Mcdonalds, basically). I'm just really worried about school as of late, because my grades aren't that good, and I should probably be studying more often, but it's really just my personality. I'm not the type to keep my head focused on school in general. I mean, like anyone else, I love a good book... but, I've been really unfocused, and even a good book can't keep me focused.

I think I've mentioned it before, but I've also been smoking. A bad habit indeed, and I don't smoke much... I've only smoked 2 in my pack. I think I'll keep it to like once or twice a week. I don't want my teeth to rot either, and about lung cancer... I don't know. If I got cancer, I don't know... I'm not really one to talk about how life great is... until then, I don't know. I smoke because of my stress about life. See, to other people, they think they stress more because of their personal problems. But really, I'm not smoking because of my relationship problems or what-not, I'm smoking because I REALLY hate my life, I hate everything about me... ME, just me. My friends, family, etc... are not included in this. Sure, I may talk about how one or the other can piss me off and it'll make me sad, angry, or depressed or whatever the shit may be. But I'm stressed about MY LIFE, not some drama I started, just MY LIFE. I'm really a wreck, I don't have any dreams or ambitions, nor do I feel useful in any situation. Also, 'some' of my friends aren't really  being the best either, I'm not going to name anybody because I don't wanna start a commotion. Although, I don't really think anybody I know personally reads this... well, reads it daily?

I'm not worried about love, as that will probably come later in my life. I'm just worried about me you know? I've always cared about what other people think of me, and I never took the time to think about myself. I mean, sure, I've thought about myself in that greedy aspect like "I'll keep my money to myself" or "I'll eat that last french fry"... haha, bad example... but, I never thought about what's good for me... maybe I will.

I think i answered my own "question", so... I'll try dude. I'll try. Yes, I'll try with this really messy-non-linear weblog entry I wrote. Haha... I think I'll expect me to have a liscence in the summer, and a job... as well as other things. Right now, I put love on hold, but recently, since I've been "single" again... alot of people have been adding me in several internet "friend-places" (eg. myspace, friendster, clubzone... etc).

I'm tired, I think I may have to write an essay. Good night mates.

Ohh, sorry I can't reply back Topo-Chan! I'm mucho busy. Hehe... so yah, I miss you Topo & Eiyuu!

My mom was complaining about my black nail polish and how I look "gothic". LMFAO.

My ex IM'd me again (still talking actually), we're actually having a normal-toned conversation... I'm just scared of, if it does come up, that he might want me back. I doubt that, since he's too afraid to ask me that I guess. But still, this isn't a nice feeling. I think he's slowly trying to get back in my life... I have to admit, that... he's not really what I need right now.

You know, my life has been different since we broke up. Not because of him, I just changed as a person, probably 2 weeks or a month after we broke up. Heh... well, I'll write more later. I'm reading up on Clock Tower, the SCARIEST shit on the Super Nintendo. OMG.

It fun no? LOL.

Well, I had class which was rather interesting, might I add. Alot of debates going on, and thank God my teacher doesn't like "common" debates, because frankly, I'm sick and tired of hearing debates and shit about abortions, gay-marriage... etc. I think I'm beginning to open up to College Composition 2.

Well, after school I decided to go to New York, intending to buy one of many three dollar CD's at BOOK-OFF (or two), and then they had more Hello! Project stuff, and I only had twenty dollars, and yes, I went mad and bought two CD's, Petit Best 3 and Mini Moni's 2nd Album (which was ten dollars, and oddly UNOPENED). I really like the MiniMoni CD, which is again odd because I'm not a big fan of their image. BOOK-OFF also had some other H!P CD's, but I'll get them later if they're still there (such as Morning Musume 6th Album, Country Musume 1st Album, a Natsume Abe single... etc...)

Man, I'm so hungry, all I ate today was a Slim Fast... snack bar. It's not even a meal bar, it's a snack bar... I think it was 120 calories jam-packed with all these vitamins and minerals and shit. Haha... oh great, now when I eat something, the calories will double because my stomach needs to eat something.

I also saw Helen at the square again, I think I saw Robert G. at the PATH train, but I wasn't really sure... this kid looked taller, so maybe it was just some red-headed weirdo staring at me for no reason. Hmm... damn, I'm hungry, so I guess I'll end the entry like this. You know, odd.

I'm so bored and quite daft, and did I mention school sucked ass on Monday and Tuesday?

Anyway, you know what I'm beginning to hate? Online stalkers... like, if you're from County Prep, Jersey City, Union City, North Bergen, any nearby city, or NY and I have at least some remote connection to you. You're a fucking stalker. Now, the stalker might be saying now "this kid is fuckin' retarted he thinks people he would remotely know are reading his stupid weblog"... well, tell me, is that the case? You're ickle minds amuse me, so go ahead read my weblogs if my demise makes you feel so special you idiot childs of Jersey.

I wonder why some people like to pry into my life, I'm just a regular person with bad luck. Reasons I don't really want to get into. I mean, first off, I really don't have that much friends (and more of them aren't real friends, some of them like to read/gossip on my weblogs and not talk to me in reality). I used to, but I changed as a person and become this sardonic bitch who likes to keep to himself. Although, I'm not like that anymore as I've turned into this "happy shiny" social bug who makes like four new friend in speech class (and might I add, we're all diverse as hell).

Anyroad, I've been playing alot of Lunar: Dragon Song, it's an ok game, and not the best Lunar. Then, I've copied my friends' "cowboy bepop" dvd's on my comp, and it's not that great... lol. Oops, I was watching it and forgot I was writing a weblog... haha.