Wow thanks everyone for your fucking concern. On this fucking site for almost 3 fucking years and I can't get any fucking concern for my mother!

 Thanks for nothing.

My mother and I have our issues, but I have to admit my mother has some of the worst luck ever.

Yesterday afternoon soon after she left for work, her house caught fire and burned to the ground. The firefighters were able to save some things but just about everything on the top floor was a total loss.

She's still in shock. She is switching between being in good spirits to sounding totally exhausted. She meets with the insurance adjuster monday. I hope it's not going to the total fiasco I'm hearing that it's going to be.

But thank goodness all the sentimental things I keep thinking of are safe. The things I was most worried about was pictures and the flag that was on my Grandfather's casket when he passed. Those are things that can't be replaced. Granted you can buy flags but none with the same meaning as that.

I'm exhausted with worry. I feel so helpless cuz there really isn't a thing I can do. I can collect things on this end and take too her. But she has no place to live. She stayed in a hotel last night. And is going to be staying at my grandmother's for a while.

>sigh< I'll keep yall updated!

I've finally started catching up on movies I missed while I was pregnant and then this past year (yup little bit is almost a year old)

I saw Skeleton Key last week. That was a very strange movie. With an ending that shocked me. I wasn't real impressed with the movie over all though. It was very confusing.

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I love this movie. The one liners are great. Plus there is a character that reminds me of my great grandmother. I thought this version was 20x better then the original. They actually created a backstory so that the movie made sense. Very well done.

Dark Water. Another very good movie. It was predictable in parts and the ending was kind of sad. We will be buying this movie for our collection.

Still have a few more movies to go through we will see how well they are lol

   Do you ever get to the point where you're tired of everything? I'm to that point. I want to change all our furniture. I want to change all the clothes in my closet. I even want to change Cliff's and the babies stuff.

   I want to get out of town on vacation. Not another 9 day trip from hell with my mother like I took last month. I want a get away with Cliff someplace. Maybe to a bed and breakfast. That sounds like fun to me.

   I do need to start saving up I have a Civil War event coming up in September. And I need to get little bit outfitted. I've wanted to go to this event since I first started reenacting. And this year I'm going even if I have to walk every step of the way. My seamstress is in the process of making me a dress.

    Anyway on to other things. The baby has 5 teeth now and is working on getting a 6th one. She's learning to walk and her first word was Mama. Her second was Papa. She has a smile that can melt the toughest heart. But she can be a little pain in the butt. She's not been sleeping at night, last night she had me up at 1:30 and 5:44. I'm so tired I'm getting grouchy. Housework is suffering because I'm too tired to do it.

   We need rain so bad here. We've had 3 days of rain in the past 3 months. Everyone is on water restriction. There's wildfires everywhere. I panic when I hear a siren, thinking that theres a fire near us.

   Anyway enough belly achin.

   I'm in pain. Not the kind of pain that will go away on its own....oh no it's the kind of pain that only a dentist can fix.

   I hate dentists, and only go when I have too. I haven't been in years so I was quite surprised at how much they are going to charge just to pull this one single tooth. It starts at $118.00 and can go up to $300.00. How outragous is that? We are a single income family with a baby. We don't even have a tiny bit of that. Jeez louise.

   Anyway enough bitchin.

   The managers of the place where we live are amazing people. They are always bringing us stuff, usually for the baby. But this past weekend they brought us a cedar closet. It's beautiful. The claimed they got it at a yard sale, made an offer the people couldn't refuse.

   Now all we need are some bookcases and we're set! I may go yardsailing with them one weekend and hopefully I can find what we need for the house.

Hmmmmm....Do I dare start blogging here again???

If I do start will the changes finally take place?

Or will they ever take place??