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Ok, help...
Im am trying my very hardest not be get all paranoid and anxious about this, but thst is now two emails and a good couple of days that the boy has 'read' but not replied according to myspace. Please be honest with me - do you think this means he does not want to talk to me and that it may be over or could there be some innocent explanation? Martian xxx
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Nerves...
Now, those of you who know me will remember that I am nervous and paranoid about everything that happens. Today I have my driving test so I am incredbily nervous about that, and also I am sort of seeing a guy who is at my Uni but from America, so has gone home for Christmas and gets back in three weeks. So I am paranoid that he will change his mind about me, which, lets face it WILL happen, and this isnt aided by the pure evil of myspace which lets me know that he has read my email but not repiled. I need to be banned from that site, it just makes me worse! So, all of these emotions combined, I want to take to my bed until the whole driving/christmas/new year nightmare is over and I get to start back at uni. Chances of this being a possibility?
Martian xxx
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I'm back..... and maybe this time for good!
Or I may deflect to platform27, haven't quite decided yet!
Right, a summer of no internet has left my, dubious to begin with, writing skills in rag order so I'm going to become faithful to my blog once again. Don't actually have the internet yet, but my university is kind enough to provide a free service, so it will do for the meantime.
Today's subject: Family.
My god. Spent the last weekend back in good old Rommers for my Aunt's wedding, which was fine, except for the reception. I have one of those big old traditional East End famileis, not dissimilar from the Eastenders version of 'Fahmly' where you have to spend the resulting five hours answering the same question over and over again to people who barely even remember your name. Now, this in itself isn't a bad thing, its just that is you saw these people in the street or you were in trouble or something, they wouldn't recognise you or give you the time of day, so these parties where you have to spend hours giving a big show of how close you all are are just a big sham really, I just find it very hypocritical that everyone has to make a big show of caring when really they dont give damn - and there really is no such thing as a happy family.
Just and endnote here: Myspace
It causes no end of problems. And for goodness sake, if you are going to blog about something do it somewhere seperatley - not on myspace where everyone on your list can see what you are saying about them. Trust me, if your going to blog then so it somewhere that they won't find it, or just do it privately - it saves an awful lot of hassle.
Rant over.
Martian xxx
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House
Hello, Despite constant promises to update more often, I've just moved into a new house and have no internet access at the moment. This is all quite exciting, this is technically the first time Ive lived off my own back seen as we didnt have to pay bills in the Halls. Even my job is getting more responsibility. Look at me go. Shame I'm still a waster student. Martian xxx
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Today...
...I need some advice from you all.
My relationship is going down the drain basically, and I don't want it to, Ive been very happy and although we are just at uni and its not a forever thing, I would have been happy to carry on and see where it went. However, things are slowly getting worse and worse, its a fight to get him to see me, the situation always seem to go as, 'well, no-one is coming round that day so as long as nothing gets organised in the meantime I suppose you can come round'. We have seen each other once in the last fortnight.
We nearly borke up earlier this week, but decided to put more effort in to seeing each other and getting along, but he just hasnt put any effort in at all, its driving me mad!
The only reason this is so hard is because when we are together its amazing, we get on so well and have such a good time, but we have all these problems because he just refuses to see me most of the time.
What can I do?
Martian xxx
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Not the usual level of excitement for a monday morning...
...Oh yes, because I am coming home for a few days, woo! This will probably sound so stupid, but I miss London so much, Carlisle is lovely and all, but London just has so much more to offer!
Anyway, I'm going back to my old college to see if I can pick up any of my old art work, and the usual gallery hopping seen as there is one, tiny gallery in Carlisle. Don't get me wrong though - its great here, and you can just hop on the train to Newcastle if you want to be somewhere a bit bigger, I just think I might have been happier if I went to a Uni that was in a City. Carlisle is about the size of Romford so something a bit different would probably have been nice. Oh well, its only another couple of yearsm which won't hurt me, and then I can move wherever I feel like to start working properly... Scary!
Martian xxx
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Hmm....
After spending most of the day trying to get to grips with this new platform, I have concluded that I am not yet sure about the new 20six...
I havent yet worked out how to get a layout similar to my old one - Im sure that will come with time though, once I find it a bit easier to get around and understand the spatterings of French and German that are around....
I have been trying to reconstruct my favourites list but couldn't remember everyone's address, so that will be work in progress as well...
Yes, basically I'm not sure yet, won't be giving up on 20six entirely just yet, just need to get used to it a bit more...
What does everyone else think?
Martian xxx
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