...for leaving me, I'm really glad this has happened.

I have met beautiful people this past week, and I have beautiful friends. I have beautiful music, and I am happy.

*Big Grins*

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement
No way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that drop like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never open
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending
Always over
Back and forth, up and down like a rollercoaster
I am breaking
That habit
Today

You know you did it
I'm gone
To find someone to live for
In this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You're wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it, babe
Take the hint and walk away
'Cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone

Oh well, for the second time I have been dumped a few days before Valentines day. This comes as no surprise - I am clearly destined to spend it on my own everyyear. I know its just a day, but it would be nice to feel someone loves me you know? But for another year at least, noone does.

But I love Mike, so much. Just to have him in my arms for 5 seconds, would be so brilliant right now. It could equal my present for all my Bdays ever and it would be worth it.

And if this is the end for me and him, as it seems to be, all this pain that i'll go through will be ok, becasue at least I had him, if only for 4 months (yes - its our 4 month aniversary today!)

Mike - I love you, so much.

I love you.... just remember... I love you.

Please don't take too long.
Even if it's bad...I just want to know...please baby, I love you

For him to just drop everything, for just one day, to come and see me and sweep me up in his arms, cuddle me, hold me, kiss me, stroke my hair, tell me everything will be ok. We can sort everything out because he loves me so much he'll do anything, we can do anything, nothing else matters.

Of course it is. Cause  I suck. and I always want what I can not have.